PSM again?

yes,its u again.haih another month n ill be free freeee.okay lets not get too excited now.so am doing PSM again, bloody tiring stuff, i mean am doing thesis now.will pass up tomorrow, n will update later on sunway, another 2 and a half chapter to go.wippee!!

back on writing and editing my thesis.ciawww~

PSM and opportunities.

yeah.PSM.have to pass up final draft on mon or tue,so of course am gonna pass it up on tue,not wed,but if i can for sure i will!n yeah the software is another 20pc to complete,which is to interface it with hardware. my two objectives are now completed!woohoo!but another one is not yet completed as the interfacing is still under process.homaigoddd. only Allah knows how bloody tired i am.


so tomorrow, will pack up lappy,notes and some clothes, will be going for a short gate-away with boyfie, and will meet up V there.woohoo!cant wait!will be back on mon,and will *possibly* finish the thesis and study for test.


the other day, my friend told me how her room mate was studying for 5days for one particular subject, but got the same mark as me who study the morning before the test. and she even commented how for the second test, where i study the morning before again, but still managed to get full mark. and it makes me think that i should be thankful for my good brain. another call me sponge, cause he said i could absorb whatever the lecturer teaches in class without even studying. geez. but sometimes, it does makes me wary. cause some friends do ask me for help whenever they had problems in studies, but when i asked to teach me some things, they just go "you r soo clever, you can figure it out yourself" or "kau kan baca slide dah paham". wtf. haih its hard to say anything after that isn it?


n i figure since before this i m too dedicated to my bf and ignore most of my friends *esp guys* so with the new boyfie, i decided to focus more on my friends, and most of the time, i ignore my boyfie. he understand that, since i told him before we get together. but after a year with me, he could see how i was always disappointed with certain friends. but still, i cant cut lose those ties. i guess my loyalty towards my friends still doesnt pay off,and i decided to make priority to who-ever makes appointment first. next thing i know, i was a driver. the one who have license and brave enough to drive. and my friends got closer. but since they have a new driver in house now, they never ask me out again. i guess what mr boyfie says is true. that people always take other people for granted, and people are opportunities who always try to sucks other. not every one of them, but some just discouraged me from trying. 


so what should we do with friends like this? i figured long time ago not trust anyone, and i think i should not anymore. lying, back stabbing, bitching, all this shit happen. that s life. u just gotta know when to stop giving, n when to stop being a door mat.


boys, dont try to understand girls. cause even i, dont understand them.


off to kl now!

its hard to decide

its hard to decide

as they torn me apart

as each have their own reason

as both, i am torn for

words could not even describe how broken i feel

as shame and disappointed cloud my heart

as another scar attached itself 

lacing and dancing upon

my broken,broken thoughts

and common sense,

is not even common anymore

oh you~ gorgeous gorgeous you~

*type type type*

*yawnnn*

clicked FB,clicked refresh....

HOMAIGODDDD!!!

Katy Perry's new pic starring at me,me and meee.

i think if i'm lesbian or bisexual, i want Katy as my girlfriend!

*who cares if she does not know that i am even existed.pfftt.*

gorgeous,gorgeous girl!

ahhh..

see?homaigod cantiknyer kau nihhhh.

i think my heart just popped a firework because of you, Katy love.

zaman muda2 dolu2,zaman i kissed a girl.homaigodddd~

nyumnyumnyummmm

oh am having a serious chronic girl crush here!!

yes am not forgetting you too, Alexa love~

em em em~

beautiful girls~

all over the world~

haih..

oh sorry boyfie,am just saying IF i am one,but am not one okay?

i m just having a lil girl-crush after all.

la di-la di-la~

*oh dulu ak crush kat J Lo, Britney. teehee.
laki pulak ak crush kat...oh terlalu ramai.tehee
jgn jeles mr. K! *

Someone by Bandcamp...song for mr boyfie~

a song for mr. Boyfie.

been listening to songs so that i would not fall asleep doing my thesis

and this song came up and i just....

miss my boyfie soo much!

*sobs*

i guess this song have some effect on me *and my friends*

to mr boyfie, this is for you~

Well I'm battered down

I'm burnt out like a half of a cigarette

and I'm passed out on the floor

Thinking am I happy yet?

I'm filmed in black in white

But you remember me in colors

Singing songs about my heartache

and my jealousy of others.

And it's hard to explain it

and hard to contain it

and hard to explain how it feels

'Til there's someone to cry about

Someone to fight it out

Someone to say..you're the reason they breathe

'til there's someone you're crazed about

the one you can't live without

Someone to say.

You're the reason they breathe.

Well, I'm feeling kind of lonely

'Cause I lost my train of thought

Tried to run away from thinking

But it only got me caught

I'm as open as a rose

When summers air can spare no rain

In this drought I'm almost dead

And in this sun I'm rather plain

Does it help you to cling to

the shell you've turned into?

I wish you the best and the worst

'Til there's someone to cry about

Someone to fight it out

Someone to say..you're the reason they breathe

'til there's someone you're crazed about

the one you can't live without

Someone to say.

You're the reason they breathe.

Noo..

Oh, well I fumble back and fall

Then try to find my words

But there's a couple or a couplet that you haven't heard

Guess I'll try a little harder,

try some workin' it out

I think I'd fall on my face on my way out

Tried to kiss you baby,

tell you everything on my mind

Tried to spit out my heart,

when I go lookin' behind

If there's something more to say

Then go and say it now

'Til there's someone to cry about

Someone to fight it out

Someone to say..you're the reason they breathe

'til there's someone you're crazed about

the one you can't live without

Someone to say.

You're the reason they breathe.

*sobs*

yes i think my eyes are at the edge of tearing..

i guess pms does effect me!

darn..

oh yes i recognized the symptoms before miss P coming knocking

i pray more

i become more religious some-how

n then boom miss P come n my laziness affect me again.

haih

i miss my boyfie....

*cue for mellow+cheesy moment*

i guess since i am so bloody tired this week,i miss him more...

especially when i am tired and cranky.

haih mr boyfie,wake up lahhh..

*i seriously love to see him in baju melayu.so sexy!*faint*  :P *

*sobs*

perasan disalahkan,by mr Hamka from keretamayat.

"Aku nak kenalkan korang dengan istilah baru kali ni, iaitu istilah“PERASAN DISALAHKAN”…

Orang yang ada sifat ‘perasan disalahkan’ adalah terdiri daripada mereka yang otak slow, lembab, cepat merajuk dan mudah beremosi..

Sekiranya korang ‘perasan disalahkan’ tapi tidak melatah sebaliknya cepat-cepat membaiki ‘kesalahan’ yang orang lain perasan atau belum perasan maka korang selamat dari menjadi mereka yang otak slow, lembab, cepat merajuk dan mudah beremosi.., kerana hakikatnya mungkin korang tidak bersalah Cuma perasan disalahkan..

Orang yang otak slow, lembab, cepat merajuk dan mudah beremosi adalah tidak sesuai menjadi teman hidup atau sahabat pena, sebab nanti kelembapan otaknya akan berjangkit dengan kita dan kitapun jadi slow gak, sebab Nabi dah pesan, kalau nak wangi, berkawanlah dengan penjual minyak wangi, dan kalau nak asap, berkawanlah dengan penjual arang, begitu lebih kurang..

Ciri-ciri orang yang ada sifat ‘perasan disalahkan’ adalah orang yang apabila ada teguran di buat secara umum, dia rasa macam orang yang menasihat tu tuju kat dia sorang, lalu dia pun melenting, marah, beremosi dan mula buat perkara bodoh, macam bilal yang dah tak ke masjid dalam entry yang lepas, kan bodoh tu? Tak ke rugi diri sendiri?, merajuk macam budak-budak..

Aku rasa istilah ‘merajuk macam budak-budak’ juga sudah tidak sesuai di gunakan sebab budak budak apabila merajuk senang dipujuk, tapi mereka yang ‘perasan disalahkan’ bila merajuk dan tak makan pujuk lagi, ni namanya merajuk macam orang tua kutuk nak mampus!"





i found his blog on9 from mr k blog,n i admit,i was hooked!addicted and reading lotss of entry.n i think,i love this one the most.i've met few of these  "otak slow, lembab, cepat merajuk dan mudah beremosi" & i gotta say,he is right!sikap perasan orang orang itu memang kelakar when bila dipikir2.esp when we are saying things randomly or we are talking about somebody else.*rofl* maybe because we are sensitive, emo, and child-like.puh leezz,u are already 20+,no?i supposed that is the age where you should be matured enough,but noooo.they ahve to stay in their comfort zone,and insecurity, and bloody as well making other people pay for it.ceh.loser.with a big L upon ur head.pfft. yeah,if im blogging of people that i dont like,well,its mine,n it supposed to be about what i want to talk about,yeah?if you want to make a blog about well let say,food,go on.i wont stop you.but hey,why are you trying to stop me from writing my piece of mind?yeah whatever.wasting time.you probably bawling your eyes out,trying to tell everyone that that bitch trying to bully me againnn~ *wailing* yeah so what?i am a bitch,and once you make me mad,well,face the music,loser..


oh ada orang terasakah?i am just talking randomly,if someone make me mad.you does not mean you,you know?like my friends who know they did not do anything so they never said anything.not even trying to defend themselves,coz they know that they did not do any wrong to me.simple isn it?the more you trying to defend urself,the more people can see ur mistake is.or mistakes are.whatever.i'll let u let it all out kay? pfttt!

beautiful blogger.

well well what do you know.

a beautiful blogger award

well first and foremost, i would like to thank Ery for nominating me one

i had this back in my other private blogger,but thank you for this!

erm now to nominate beautiful blogger:

of course....*malasnye nak link2 nih*

V

mizzQ

winnie darling

mummy yen

ash

ershadiah

naddy yaya

nad

bintang izzati

nuyun huda

jojie

yatt

*can i nominate guys too?*

aiman

ezrin twintot and elle

and others.i m too lazy to find link. :P

my beautiful definition surely others would never agree.

but still, i think that beautiful is subjective

and it lies on the eyes of the beholder.

thank you again Ery for nominating me. XD