Past, future, present...

Goodbye 2010, and hello 2011. What will you bring this year? Happiness? Heartache? I do hope it brings me happiness, and a lot more luck this year. 

There are too many question running on my mind. Such as, how would you feel when you were given a your own death date? You know when the doctor told the ones you love that you only have few more year, few more months to live. How would you react when the world around you close down, you have no idea what to do, your loved ones crumble right before your eyes when you think he's the strongest in the whole wide world? How would you feel when you think you have no idea will he be there during your graduation, during your solemnization, your first child? Will he be able to enjoy your first salary? Could you bring him to the place you want to take him for holiday? Will your child be able to know their grandfather? Will he be the one who says those akad nikah? How hurt will chemo be? Will he be okay?


So many questions, not one could be answered..


Sigh..


I just hope everything will be okay. Will start as an intern soon, in 3days time probably. I will try to do my best on the job although am not sure yet what I am supposed to do.


I'm fairly detached person, I don't dwell on much on past, and I often forget all about it anyway. For me, past is past is past, nothing you can do about it, except move on and if you make a mistake, well make sure you don't make the same mistake twice, or thrice, or as long as it takes for you to learn. We all are trying to learn every single day, and I'm learning new stuff everyday. 


This year, I learn my dad had a lung cancer, and both lung have been infected. I am speechless and fat tears slide down before I can't even think. I just hope everything will be okay next year. I could only pray for his wellbeing and wellness.


Seriously, my mind could only focus on one thing, and that is my father. I could not imagine my life without him. :( 


So yeah, happy new year everybody, may next year bring you guys happiness and wellness, have fun in everything you do. 

DIET : Garlic bread, toasted cheese on garlic bread n chicken soup.

Aku demam, kesan jangkitan drp akak aku, n 1family aku demam termasuk aku. Sebab demam, selere western aku mula menggila, so aku buat la garlic bread n chicken soup ni. Eleh chicken soup vono je pon. Tambah air, kacau2, siap. Tapi vono ni kalu pekat jadi masin, so terpaksa la aku tambah air lagi. Pastu, garlic bread ni pon senang je, blend bawang putih, then kluarkan, masuk dalam mangkuk, letak butter secukup rasa n dsebabkan aku gila cheese, aku letak parmesan cheese. Gaul sampai semua sebati, then spread on the bread. Yang ade cheese besar gedabak tu aku letak cheesedale aje. Pastu bakar dalam oven atau toaster oven. Tunggu laa brape minit, aku tunggu 14mins, then da boleh cicah ngan soup tadi. Sekian, aku nak makan ubat & bmalas2an. Malas rasa nak g kl ngn badan camni.




Btw, happy holiday suma!! Woohoo

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Malaysia won!

Okay not for the recent game which we lost 1-2, but overall we won!!!!


Heck we never win anything for a longggg time and I think Raja Gopal's move on changing the player paid off well. And Indonesia, stop blaming everything on ur loss. Or anything else. Starting from laser, to bomoh, gosh u did play laser and so on, but Malaysia played cool-ly. I am adoring Malaysia's keeper, oh so cute Kelantase Fahmi. Adoreee.


Overall, congratulation Malaysian player. U make me have faith in Malaysian football again. I hope I could see a better play in the future. Cheers!

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Bye bye home~

Well yeah it is time to say goodbye to comfort, home cooked meals, free internet, games, lazing around doing practically nothing and say hello to hostel-like accomodation, bland meals, work work and more work. In less than a week, yours truly will start on intern-ing at one of a company in gelang patah. Since no jeans and baju kurung are allowed, i probably will be using lots of shirts and khakis, and oh covered shoes too. And scarf of course. Wow. I am practically not a student anymore. Humm..


Well for those who will be an intern next year, best wishes for u guys. Hope all of us will be doing well and graduate next year. Have fun on ur internship n wish me luck! Gonna go Gombak tml myb and straight to hostel on Sunday. No idea what am I gonna face next year, but well... Have a happy new year everybody!

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Kampung trip!

My smiley granma. I totally heart this woman. She shows me everything could be done if you put ur heart on it. :)

My other mother, my aunty, Che Nab, gorgeous woman, even gorgeous heart, her birthday is the same as Khyru's. No wonder I could get along so well :P

Pika, Che Nab's daughter or my cousin, good luck on next year SPM kid!

Growing up, me n her brother always giving her hard time. :P

My uncle, Che Ya, brainy guy. Over dinner we talk about history and he quizzes us on who is who, blah2.

My two poser, the older, Ecah, and the younger, Hajar. Hajar practically is my daughter, I took care of her from she's 3hours till now. Even when she's moody and don't like to be with anyone else but her mom, she still wants to be with me, cute kid, too crazy for a kid, just like I was before. :P The older sister is much more refine, shy and quiet, totally a drama queen but the younger is a drama queen, n she's a rock star in a way.

Me and my fav crazy cousin. We do things together when we were a kid, and growing up, we tease each other mercilessly. 

Tanjung piai, 15mins from my kampung.

The family

Awesome huh? MasyaAllah. :)

Can you see the monkeys?

DIET : Pizza

It's actually pizza from pizza hut, but stilll... I love domino's chili flakes so much idc! :)

DIET : various breads and cakes

Place : SDS Kota Tinggi

Its yummy! But some are not our taste, but nevertheless, since someone else is paying, just eat it!