There are too many question running on my mind. Such as, how would you feel when you were given a your own death date? You know when the doctor told the ones you love that you only have few more year, few more months to live. How would you react when the world around you close down, you have no idea what to do, your loved ones crumble right before your eyes when you think he's the strongest in the whole wide world? How would you feel when you think you have no idea will he be there during your graduation, during your solemnization, your first child? Will he be able to enjoy your first salary? Could you bring him to the place you want to take him for holiday? Will your child be able to know their grandfather? Will he be the one who says those akad nikah? How hurt will chemo be? Will he be okay?
So many questions, not one could be answered..
Sigh..
I just hope everything will be okay. Will start as an intern soon, in 3days time probably. I will try to do my best on the job although am not sure yet what I am supposed to do.
I'm fairly detached person, I don't dwell on much on past, and I often forget all about it anyway. For me, past is past is past, nothing you can do about it, except move on and if you make a mistake, well make sure you don't make the same mistake twice, or thrice, or as long as it takes for you to learn. We all are trying to learn every single day, and I'm learning new stuff everyday.
This year, I learn my dad had a lung cancer, and both lung have been infected. I am speechless and fat tears slide down before I can't even think. I just hope everything will be okay next year. I could only pray for his wellbeing and wellness.
Seriously, my mind could only focus on one thing, and that is my father. I could not imagine my life without him. :(
So yeah, happy new year everybody, may next year bring you guys happiness and wellness, have fun in everything you do.
So many questions, not one could be answered..
Sigh..
I just hope everything will be okay. Will start as an intern soon, in 3days time probably. I will try to do my best on the job although am not sure yet what I am supposed to do.
I'm fairly detached person, I don't dwell on much on past, and I often forget all about it anyway. For me, past is past is past, nothing you can do about it, except move on and if you make a mistake, well make sure you don't make the same mistake twice, or thrice, or as long as it takes for you to learn. We all are trying to learn every single day, and I'm learning new stuff everyday.
This year, I learn my dad had a lung cancer, and both lung have been infected. I am speechless and fat tears slide down before I can't even think. I just hope everything will be okay next year. I could only pray for his wellbeing and wellness.
Seriously, my mind could only focus on one thing, and that is my father. I could not imagine my life without him. :(
So yeah, happy new year everybody, may next year bring you guys happiness and wellness, have fun in everything you do.
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