Hey all.
I miss blogging. I really do! It's been four months that I have not been blogging, weeding out trashes from the system. I tried too many things in these four months although it's not enough.
So, the update. I'm still trying to learn how to be a wife and tactful. I'm too honest at times. I did not start any new hobby. I'm getting sarcastic. My father died two months after I got married. *RIP, dad. Love you too much.. *. My performance at work is absolutely nearing perfect for a first year worker as well as young engineer with no experience and even my head of department is happy he congratulate me personally *That, makes my day!* , I bought books and been banned from buying books cause I bought too many. I tried eating healthily and I lost 3 kg, when I found out I'm pregnant. So, of course I will be bigger and bigger by the end of this year!
I was offered to go to New Mexico but declined. As I'm now in my first trimester, I'm very vulnerable, I can't even walk and do things actively. When I was preached with the joy of having a baby, I was not told the side effects of it. :(
I got a mixed feeling for this baby. I mean, I'm no kid lover. I don't even know how to take care of babies. I was said that I was born without any maternal instinct. Oh and I'm now pregnant when I want the baby in maybe 3 years time. It all came suddenly that I was shock and scared and happy. Yes there's happiness, and there's worry too. Money, house, child care. I'm the girl who planned to start business then I'll have a baby. I'm the girl who plan to take care of her own children without the need of childcare. I'm the girl who scoff at mommies who gets too excited with babies and the likes. Sigh what a contradiction I am.
And I got a lot of advice! For now I just stick to reciting Quran, trying my best to pray all the times, eat sensibly, not to be too active, and the likes.
The 5 thing I hate being pregnant (the first trimester):
1. Food.
Then the food. Oh glorious food. I have to forget sushi, half boiled eggs, those coconut drinks, sugarcane and whatever pregnant woman can't eat. I'm allergic to milk, so I'll be vomiting milk after I consume it. All for growing a healthy baby. I'm not even sure when is the due date as it is too small when I did the ultra scan. This is the time when I can get to eat whatever I want and I can't.. :(
2. The cramp pain.
You have your period pains and cramps. I have pregnancy pains and cramps, which period pains ends around a week or two, these pregnancy pains last like foreverrr *well it does in my opinion. :P *
3. The foot/ leg swelling
This is only when I'm too active, so I feel my feet swells and the back of the kneecap is tired and feel really tight. The Malay calls it Simpul Biawak. Need to rest at put up the feet for few minutes and taadaa, gone! +, it will be gone sooner if there's someone who help to massage the leg and feet, wink wink. :)
4. The lethargic during day and energetic during nights.
I'm very comatose during the day, and I feel sleepy around 11am, yet when I'm home and I tried to sleep early, I'll be dashing off to toilet ever so often that I don't feel rested at all.
5. The helplessness feeling.
Everybody asking me to take it easy. I'm pregnant and remember, take it easy, don't do things that could endanger me and baby. Oh well.
I miss blogging. I really do! It's been four months that I have not been blogging, weeding out trashes from the system. I tried too many things in these four months although it's not enough.
So, the update. I'm still trying to learn how to be a wife and tactful. I'm too honest at times. I did not start any new hobby. I'm getting sarcastic. My father died two months after I got married. *RIP, dad. Love you too much.. *. My performance at work is absolutely nearing perfect for a first year worker as well as young engineer with no experience and even my head of department is happy he congratulate me personally *That, makes my day!* , I bought books and been banned from buying books cause I bought too many. I tried eating healthily and I lost 3 kg, when I found out I'm pregnant. So, of course I will be bigger and bigger by the end of this year!
I was offered to go to New Mexico but declined. As I'm now in my first trimester, I'm very vulnerable, I can't even walk and do things actively. When I was preached with the joy of having a baby, I was not told the side effects of it. :(
I got a mixed feeling for this baby. I mean, I'm no kid lover. I don't even know how to take care of babies. I was said that I was born without any maternal instinct. Oh and I'm now pregnant when I want the baby in maybe 3 years time. It all came suddenly that I was shock and scared and happy. Yes there's happiness, and there's worry too. Money, house, child care. I'm the girl who planned to start business then I'll have a baby. I'm the girl who plan to take care of her own children without the need of childcare. I'm the girl who scoff at mommies who gets too excited with babies and the likes. Sigh what a contradiction I am.
And I got a lot of advice! For now I just stick to reciting Quran, trying my best to pray all the times, eat sensibly, not to be too active, and the likes.
The 5 thing I hate being pregnant (the first trimester):
1. Food.
Then the food. Oh glorious food. I have to forget sushi, half boiled eggs, those coconut drinks, sugarcane and whatever pregnant woman can't eat. I'm allergic to milk, so I'll be vomiting milk after I consume it. All for growing a healthy baby. I'm not even sure when is the due date as it is too small when I did the ultra scan. This is the time when I can get to eat whatever I want and I can't.. :(
2. The cramp pain.
You have your period pains and cramps. I have pregnancy pains and cramps, which period pains ends around a week or two, these pregnancy pains last like foreverrr *well it does in my opinion. :P *
3. The foot/ leg swelling
This is only when I'm too active, so I feel my feet swells and the back of the kneecap is tired and feel really tight. The Malay calls it Simpul Biawak. Need to rest at put up the feet for few minutes and taadaa, gone! +, it will be gone sooner if there's someone who help to massage the leg and feet, wink wink. :)
4. The lethargic during day and energetic during nights.
I'm very comatose during the day, and I feel sleepy around 11am, yet when I'm home and I tried to sleep early, I'll be dashing off to toilet ever so often that I don't feel rested at all.
5. The helplessness feeling.
Everybody asking me to take it easy. I'm pregnant and remember, take it easy, don't do things that could endanger me and baby. Oh well.
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