My baby love~

I seriously in love with this picture. 

He's looking so fine!

* pose di pagi hari*

Awwww~

On motherhood and a respond to Janine Kovak

After reading the letter, I feel envious to that "Doris" who played with her Iphone all thru convo, doing her career woman stuff. Truthfully, I couldn't cope. There are some who loves kids, and there are some, who like me, kids are fine, when they are someone's else.

The pregnancy was unexpected. I was what the doctor called "non-fertile", I weight way more than the recommended weight, my menses are playing havoc, unsteady hormone and so on. So I happily thought, I'm not gonna get pregnant, naah, not in a million years. But then after 5 months without menses, I have the urge to pee on a stick. Yes, in the middle of the night, at 3am, with my husband 100km away from me. And the two lines appeared. I was like, what the fuck? No, I can't be a mom, I'm too young! This went on until morning, at 7am, I went to clinic to get checked up and "Congratulations! You are pregnant!". As the good doctor smile, I feel sick. Suddenly. I puke and all my bones aches.

I feel like I've been sentenced to death. I don't want a child, I cried. I'm too young, I hate kids, and all sort of feelings overwhelm me. Less than a week, I tried to be on positive side. I'd google on what babies like, what they should ate, what they do, blah2. I bought cloth diaper *because they save a lot of money, they are million times better for you*, I downloaded all the app regarding babies, I bought the best postnatal care *tanamera, still the best*  in fact I do all sort of research.

Then come the dreaded day of check up. Every month, I will get berated, either not gaining much weight (none, for the first 5 month) to too much weight (5kg during raya) then to not gaining much weight again(none, or less than the desired weight). Next I was given lecture. By anyone who happens to know I'm pregnant. Don't eat durian, don't eat pineapples, don't drink softdrink, don't that don't this. By my 35th week, I've started bleeding as I'm too active. I took early leave. Then I've waited, and waited, and waited. He stopped moving the last week before my due date, so I have to stay in hospital for two days. Then I got checked out, and on Tuesday, if he still won't come out, I'll be having forced labor. On Monday, I delivered him. Still, nothing. No mothering feelings, nothing. I've waited, and I'm tired and sore, and I just want to sleep. Then went I went back, I nursed. Day and night, with sore buds and nearly non stop nursing, I got tired and stressed out. Even hating him a little. I don't feel any "special bond when nursing". None. Nada. I got worried. I know I'm not ready, but I thought it will change once I gave birth.

Even until now, 2 months later, I only have little to none. Sometimes it's fun when he started laughing and so on, but when he cried, I feel like giving up, and give him to someone else (often, my husband). I look at my friends, with their breast fed child *mine went totally formula*, with their surviving on so little sleep *I'll argue with husband on whose turn to nurse/bath/change the baby* on them gushing on their baby, I feel so tired pretending. I guess there are people with maternal instinct. And then, there's Doris and me. I'd like to look at my Iphone more than my child. I'd like to go out without having to have 3 bags, all for one little baby. I'd like to go to anywhere without worrying about whether the milk is enough for him. And I got tired of people giving "advice" on how I should raise him. Are your child perfect? No? Then stop telling me advice. I hate it.

So, Doris, held your head high. Don't just follow what people tell you to do, at least you won't regret in the long term. I'm thinking of having an only child. One is maybe too many for me. We'll see. Maybe I'll grow up and learn responsibilities. Maybe...

And those cloth diaper that I bought? They are looking lovely in the cupboard. None used. Oh and I love Whoppee's diaper. Drypac, Drypers, Pet Pet all not working for me. 

Fisher Price rocker murah and many more!

Hello everyone!
It's been two months being a mommy now, and enjoying very much, except when the baby scream his head off. But since that is normal, can't complaint!

I was bored with my day job, and was looking around for business opportunities when I thought, what about doing a baby gift or hamper online? I got so many hampers the other day that I think this is a good one. and  we all know, baby things are expensive! Then, I came on this wholesale toys, and they are selling it cheap, but have to buy a lot (wholesale). So why don't I'll open a pre order for these items?

Seriously, I bought the Fisher Price rocker for RM280 taw. Bloody expensive! I saw in Jusco is RM365.
So, I found this and would love to sell these items to those who want to buy it cheaper, so I'm selling the Fisher Price rocker for RM190! And those Lamaze's inchworm/horse/dino? I saw the Lamaze sell at RM49.90, and I'm only selling it for RM28! The horse and dino for RM25! Cheap, isn't it?

RM28

RM25

RM25

Not only I'm selling cheaper toys, there's also clothes and gift too!
For example this The Cook Cake :

RM60

This rocker seriously give me more leisure time and my baby loves to sleep in it, compare to his own bed. See how this angel sleep soundly in his rocker!

L: when he's 2weeks old, R: when he's 1m+

S0, if you want to pre order these stuff, come and head down to :

http://thekookykate.blogspot.com/

and Fb :

http://www.facebook.com/thekookykate

and PM me at 

thekookykate@gmail.com 

for details!

Baby Keyaan is here!

Oh yes, as he has been for the past few weeks. :)
He's sleeping soundly now, so I could work from home and blog a bit!
Weighing just 2.28kg, he's so small that I was afraid to lift him up!
Now he's probably 2.8kg. *Hopefully*
He don't fit into most of his clothes, but I just dressed him up anyway.
The granma and great granma is full of joy that any-fucking-thing he do is genius, which for me, is just ordinary stuff babies do. I guess that is what grandparents and great grandparents  do. Or maybe just in my household.
I tired of course, but can't seems to fall asleep.
I'm trying to picture the big picture here, and how Keyaan should be in the next 10 years.
I see kids nowadays that are not thankful, materialistic, with bad manners and no discipline.
So, from now on I've been trying to keep a routine and trying to get him to sleep train.
So far, he could sleep by himself, after a 2 days crying to be held as his grandparents keep on doing.
But once he settled down, he slept by himself.
So, life is good now.
Now, I just can't wait to go back to my own house, and I just missed hubby so bad. T.T
Probably the last post of the year, so happy new year everyone, may we all have a good year ahead. :)

A week of being housewife *with recipe and DIY!*

Hello Hello!

Being a housewife is no easy feat! 

One, I'm constantly bored.

Two, read number one. :p

So what do I do?

I've cooked, I've cleaned, I've tidy up.

I make this for lunch :

Mee with soup and hotdogs: 

And then there's the perfect scrambled egg:

Three eggs, one cup of milk, salt and pepper to taste.(combined all, make sure to beat as much air in it as possible)

Take 2 tsp of butter, melt it on your frying pan.

Once the butter melted, pour the batter in.

Let it stay for half a minute, then start scrambling slowly, until all the batter become solid.

Add additional ingredients as you prefer (key : cheeseeee)

Lift the egg to dishes and eat! 

Yummiesss!

And then I make fries. Freaking delicious!

To make it, you need to cook it not once, not twice, but thrice!!

Cut the potato into strips and soak it in water + salt

Cook it in enough water and salt until the water boil over. 

Strain.

Refrigerated them until they are frozen ( a bit)

Fry them with lower temperature until they turn light golden.

Strained.

Refrigerated again.

Fry them on higher temperature until they turn golden.

Add pepper and salt if you want.

But without them also it take so freaking good.

The inside is fluffy and the outside is crispy.

Oh Oh...yummiesss~

Next, I think I posted before about the closet mom gave for the baby right?

Unfortunately I don't like the angry bird plastered on top of it.

So I decided to do something with it:

The closet: 

The paper that I chose to change the look: 

First, take out all the screws for the knob.

Next, put on the double tape on the offending drawer: 

Take them outtt: 

The put on the paper, top first, then smoother it down.

Next, put back the knob.

(The picture is not rotated. Sorry!* 

And the result: 

Tadaa~

 

It does looks better and grown up a bit, isn't it?

The next thing I tackled is the crib!

My brother gave me money to buy the mattress the other day, so we went and bought it, with white mattress protector and a white linen.

The plastic is still in the picture!

The tiger is a toy we get as we donate to WWF, and the other toy is a free gift when we bought the rocker.

So both of the toy is free!

Next I try to put all the cloth diaper that I bought in one place, and it looks freaking cute!

Only 9 in stash, and most of it are Grovia, 2 is newborn and 6 is the usual one. I got four of them half price!

Woohoo!

Then hubby bought barut for the baby (ten of them!) and their are all washed, primed and waiting for the baby to arrive!

And last but not least, I was watching tv when then baby shoving his ass on my right side of stomach.

Can you see his butt? :P 

Okay for now, I'm gonna right another post on how to past your time *while waiting for the baby to arrive*

A wedding, mini honeymoon and 37 weeks!

Hey y'all!

It's been a long week and I'm happy to announced that I'm full term and could give birth any time!

We went to Syida wedding on the weekend, from 10.00am and arrived at 2am. 

Don't ask. Tired, disoriented and sleep deprived, we bonk out as soon as we hit the pillow.

Once my head cleared, we went to Syida's house as mom will cook the makan damai, and me, rearranging the flowers and so on. 

Here's the flowers beside the bed:

The other bed and the flower bouquet: 

Me and hubby posing~ 

The bride and bridegroom:  

Then at night we went out for dinner and ate maggi ketam.

Freaking delicious with so many stuff inside!

The crab, the prawns, the soup.

Oh my godddd.

Then we went to wakaf che yeh.

Cheap cheap stuff!! 

I totally love it, will go there again next time!

The dress that I bought:

On unrelated note, I'm now 37 weeks!

We're full term!

After the pregnancy scare on 35th weeks, bleeding and the bloody show, it seems that the prayers from family and friends works!

I've just turn 37 and I'm sooo happy that the baby is full term.

Now, he can come out anytime!

I was tidying up his room yesterday, so since hubby bought the barut, I've wash them, with the crib sheet and mattress protector.

The barut: 

The cloth sis gave: 

The mitten, boots, cap, lampin with grovia cloth diaper: 

Next, after check up yesterday, since it's still early, I went and bought these lovely ladies:

*pinky, yellowy and orangy* 

Then last nite dinner we had durian, vegetable soup and cekodok kentang!

Yummy! I even had durian for today breakfast.

Weee~ 

So, since I'm too lazy, I'm just posting pictures.

I can't wait for the baby to arrive, simply cause my body is in pain 24-7!

Please baby, come out come out and playyyy~

Sincerely, mom, dad and everyone else. XD

Early leave!

I'm taking an early leave. I'm straining myself to work, when I'm so tired I can barely think straight, falling asleep while driving, sleeping too early and wake up still feeling groggy.
I've tried to have a small catnap, but since I'm so tune in the projects and all, I can't sleep.
Those what-ifs haunts me each time I shut my eyes that I ended up working at last.
My mind is totally fried, that I think, oh what the hell, take an early leave!
I still took the laptop home and work from home thou. But just part time. :)
Us workaholic freaks won't let a little pain slows us down.
But I guess travelling one hour to work is very tiring to me, and I need a good rest.
But for tomorrow, we'll be going to Kelantan to see my bff wedding!
I can't wait cause I never been there, so I'm excited!
Okay, time to work!