Blessings.

I know at times I could be really selfish, even Khyru was pointing that out this evening, however, when I got to know one of my bff had an accident and nearly lost all her memories, I was touched that a few things that she did remember, is me and another friend of mine *which is my other bff. I got lots. XD*

I thank Allah that I have Khyru now. Even my past is quite colorful *I'm quite a rebel myself* he still accept me for who I am, and even though at a really tough time, he stick with me. hopefully will last until one of leave this world, I love Khyru with all my heart, and I'm thankful as Khyru is Allah's blessing for me. He's perfect for me even though he's imperfect. I just hope I could change slowly. Cause I shut my heart, built the wall around it. Even though I want to believe him, there's a lil voice telling me I should not in case he ditch me... But I realise he don't. And he won't. Unless I still don't let him in my wall. Slowly it will crumble, I know it. I just hope it come sooner so I don't regret it.

And I'm getting married anyway. I think I could not love him more, but I did love him more than the first time we coupled. More than the first anniversary, more than the second, and more than the third. We survive the third year and we are going to get married. I'll work hard to grow old with him, and to stay in relationship with him.

Blessings.