Broken?

At times, we do remember those who used to be close to us, but doesn't mean we are not over them. Chill friend, I'm with you on this. :)

Lemonade, sugar, and a jar of water.

People said when life give you lemon, u should make lemonade. The problem is when you realize your jar of water fall to the ground, and then the sugar is mysteriously missing! What should you do then?

Life is no peach. Esp when u give all your love out then people don't appreciate it, what would you then?

I am so tired of caring for people. Sometimes I do want to be cared at. You know when you whine about something and people just ignore and said things will passed and that you are not thankful enough? Yeap eventually it will pass, but at those strained times, I do feel like its one of the biggest problem I ever had.

Some people, they chase so many things that they end up forgetting those that have been with them for the last thousand years. And when they have lil hiccups and people abandon them, then they remember, hey maybe I should call so and so, she/he always listen to my problems. Sigh.. Is that the only time you remember him/her? Is she/he not worth of your attention, since she/he was so blessed with everything?

I miss those people who once, were so important to me, but now, I don't feel that there's any thing to relate any more. Maybe we moved on. Maybe we stop caring. Maybe we grow up and feels that we are somewhat different. Maybe. Maybe not.

I wish I was some where else, and doing some thing else and start over all over again. Its getting tired and frustrating.

To my love, get well soon. I know the chemo is eating you out, and I know you are trying to fight it out. I am with you. I want to grow old with you, with you cradling my lil ones. I want them to know what a wonderful dad and grandpa that you have been. I wanted to show you how successful I can become. I wanted you to be happy with the path I've chosen and how you give me enough room on growing up. I wanted to show you a lot more, I wanted you to be proud of me.

I know I'm selfish to make you suffer in order to make me happy. If you need to go, with open heart, with open arms and mind, I'm letting you go, love. Its tiring, its hurting, it breaks my heart and even your family, but I could not selfishly asking you to stay even thou you can't anymore.

I know you are strong, and I know you could survive this and another 10 years or so easily. Stay strong Dad. I love you so, and we all do love you so. But if you can't handle it anymore, we love you enough to let you go to meet your only lover. I love you dad, and I wish you knew how much I do...

And to you, I know you are under a lot of stress, but don't take it out on others. It hurts. We are all trying to help, yet you resist so much that I don't know if I can still be here, watching you burning yourself to death...And if I have enough energy to deal with all those silly things anymore...

Again and again I fall into depression.. but the one I confessed to always, always tell me I'm not, and it will go away. Is it better to pretend that I don't have problems? That I am too perfect to have problems? I'm sorry, I can't confessed to you anymore. The trust is slowly, slowly beginning to crumple. And I don't feel like talking or opening up to you anymore.

To another you, thank you for listening to my rambling, even in wee hours of morning, or whenever I feel like talking. Even thou you don't understand my world, my life, my style and my craziness, you stood there, like a best friend should, and give me enough shoulder that yours are drenched with tears. Thank you for caring for me, you make me wanna try again, and that I can do anything. Maybe tonight we can have another double feast just like yesterday, just to cheer me up? XD

Writing gives me medium to get mad, to get creative, to write what I feel, to laugh, to cry, and its like one best friend I could always count on. I could talk on and on about my plans, my broken plans, my future and past plan, and it soothes my nerves. I miss writing. I hate whatever I wrote could be misinterpret, but I don't want to care anymore...

Any planes to any beautiful beaches with free accommodations and foods? Anyone?

Gift ideas:: Furoshiki wrapper

Hey ladies (and gentlemen if you are one)

Last week my dad told me he have extra 300 or so handkerchief, so I thought maybe I can use it for my engagement gift.

So I searched for napkin folding when I came across Furoshiki, an art on wrapping gift so save Mother Earth.

I found there's a lot of technique for different type of gifts and would love to share with you here::

http://furoshiki.com/techniques

And these are the gift, wrapped in furoshiki:

What do you think? 

Pretty, ait?

Prolly take one small box and wrapped it using this technique and walla, a nice gift!

Pictures taken from:

http://www.art-blender.com/?attachment_id=816

http://www.thekitchn.com/thekitchn/green-ideas/wrap-your-gifts-in-a-dishtowel-furoshikistyle-ungift-guide-2008-072091

My inspiration board & my check list

Hey peeps!

Am gonna share on my inspiration board on my engagement day today.

(+ the Checklist!)

First, on Deco!
My fav : tulle!

I absolutely heart tulle as it has an air of airiness and romance floating around it. 

I bought few metres of it, in gray color, and planning to do it tonight, (if I didn't fall asleep XD)

Am going to make a few small puff and big ones for the dais and photo booth! 

http://www.lifeslittlecelebrations.org

 www.3peanuts.blogspot.com

Maybe it will look like this? :D

Extremely heart this from martha.

(I wanna do lace, but too lazy~ XD)

Balloon on strings! (I've made 8 so far, I think~ )

Next, on Color!

I absolutely adore purple (lavender, violet, etc), soft neutral colors as peach, white, soft pink but there are times shocking color such as pink looks good too! 

So mostly I'll let the flowers be the center of attention XD

(see flowers)

On Flowers:

a. Wreath

I planned to do lotsa baby breath wreath and hang it around my house, with different length and sizes!

It look so pretty hanging around, swaying to and fro, isn't it?

Makes a great back drop too! XD

I love the full look of this. Pretty!

Unfortunately I think Malaysian baby breath is more like this, a bit bare, but pretty nonetheless. 

The ribbon just make it more sweeter!

It's cute when my girls have this in hand, huh?

Unique!

(Do I have enough time for all this? XD)

Here's how to from Martha :

http://www.marthastewartweddings.com/article/babys-breath-wedding-decor-how-to?backto=true

Next I love Fresh flowers!

So for hantaran, I'm gonna buy fresh flowers online, (mine from www.irtrade2u.com) 

and I'm going to buy purple, soft pink, white with pink accent, peach, shocking pink and cream. 

More or so like this:

soft pink

lavender purple

white with pink accent

peach

shocking pink

and together, they look something like this::

I love love the colors!

Something I try to achieve is this

I like this one, but I dunno where I got it, I google hantaran n I forgot where it's from. Sorryyy

I don't really dig that yellowish color, as I erm.. dislike yellow. :)

Next, on Mini Dais.

Renee, I curi u py pic! XD But I love this! I bought few yards of white curtain already, & cadang nak jahit jelujur je buat background. :)

This one is v nice n simple! <3!

So, what else? 

Oh yes FOOD!

a. Nasi jagung

(recipe here : http://www.myresipi.com/top/detail/1133 )

b. Ayam masak merah

(recipe here : http://www.myresipi.com/top/detail/75 )

c. Lemang

(recipe here : http://www.myresipi.com/top/detail/5692 )

d. Rendang

(recipe here : http://www.myresipi.com/top/detail/133 )

e. Dadih ( if I'm not too tired :) )

Next...

Favors:

I have collected few 'things' to be my favors, but it is still in planning. :)

There's no surprise if I tell you guys now, right? XD

For The Dress,
There's two!
One for engagement that is the light purple kaftan.
For another one is a secret occasion!
Then there's the veil.
I love the simplicity of drop veil.
Gorgeous!

Absolutely <3 the lace on this veil! XD

adorationnnn~

Here some interesting DIY for this drop veil:
http://krhagen.weebly.com/instructions-and-templates.html

For Hantaran:
 Him to Her:
1. Ring / Necklace
2. Telekung & Sejadah (supaya awek dia insaf banyak2 XD)
3. One bath set
4. Shoe / Bag / Watch
5. Sirih

Her to Him:
1. Sirih
2. Watch
3. Wallet & Belt
4. Book 
5. Shaving set
6. Manisan
7. Shirt

So anything else I forgotten?
This is sort of check list too right?
So...
Things to do:
Food : Mom tolong uruskan
Deco : am gonna do pom poms & string balloons
Flowers : Waiting confirmation from irtrade2u
Veil : Diy
Dress : Will have to find someone to make it smaller
Hantaran : Diy
Dais / Pelamin : Sew the curtain and some pillow
Im, Bor,  : My dad
Card : Diy
Maps : Diy

Gila a lot to plan wey!
And another 45 days before the day!!
Okay not that I'm panicking, but I have lot more to do!
Hopefully siappp. Amin. XD
Happy planning everyone!

Pics taken from::

http://keylimeweddings.com

http://botanicalbrouhaha.blogspot.com

http://alwaysandriweddingdesign.blogspot.com

http://kugab.blogspot.com

http://www.profilethai.com

http://white-rose-guidesntips12.blogspot.com

http://www.atpm.com

http://forum.xcitefun.net

http://www.vibrakeys.com

http://www.alibaba.com

www.buttonupwedding.blogspot.com

www.littleflowerpot.com.my

http://dyna2010.blogspot.com/

http://reneemeowwedding.blogspot.com/2010/10/real-weddings-adam-sabrina.html

http://sunkist79.blogspot.com/2009/07/nasi-jagung-honey-prawns.html

http://faddsagy.blogspot.com/2010_08_01_archive.html

http://lelayong.blogspot.com/2009/01/ayam-masak-merah-ii.html

www.google.com

Feedjit~

Sometimes going through my feedjit could be funny when people are looking for all sort of things.

Some are looks for baju tunang (am going to get engaged too, congratulations!), some look for braun buffel wallet (yeap I bought one for his hantaran..) then there's nusa bayu (they are niceeee looking house in a nice price bracket with serious saving!), then there's kucing british short hair, (would love to have one but I don't sell them, but I have one contact for that, here: http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100001577244428 , he is in Sarawak but he do send kitties to KL and JB. I would buy her/him, maybe next year? )

Next, there's cute paper bags. Nope darling, I don't sell that either, but there's an easy DIY that you could do, buy some plain cheap ones, then try printing words or sweet nothing on them, or even put label stickers! It will be lovely! You can find free templates here: www.oncewed.com and some on marthastewards.

Then what really interest me is that one searched for my boyfie! Khyru, you sure are faymous huh? Long lost friend? Need me to say hi to him? Drop a comment then!

But hey someone search for restless bitch too! from Istanbul eh, such a long way to search for moi. Wonder if I know you, silent r. XD

But anywayyy, if you want to find something, don't hesitate to ask. I'll try to help as much as I can. :D

Happy browsing!

Pretty flowers~

These are the flowers before I decided to do something on them. 

Very pretty!

I feel like I happy when I saw this pic! So deliciously pretty!

D.I.Y : Gubah gubah bunga~

Hey Folks!

Yesterday I went to Maple Flora to buy some flowers, and try to DIY the flowers. and I think I need to buy more!!

I bought cameron rose in dark pink, pink, white and peach, baby breath and statice. 

My friend bought that sunny yellow sunflower. Pretty!

The flowers before the ritual. :p

So what I did is buy the sponge, put it in a pail, and wait until it absorbs water and turn dark green, then wrap it in aluminium wrappers. 

Next, I just start putting in the flowers! 

So taadaa~

First try

Second try.

So moral of doing hantaran yourself is::

a. make sure how much flowers you will need for this.

ex, i thought 8 roses and 4 stalks of baby breath is enough, turns out I could only get a quarter of that round one, and only top ones for the second ones.

b. Make sure to buy more, not less!

I can't emphasize enough on this, as you know flowers could wilt, or the petals could unfurl, as exhibit b. XD

c. do not wrap the aluminium wrapper twice!

I did on the sides and I kept making my stalks broken, and make my flowers stalk shorter and shorter. 

d. Make sure which design goes well with the hantaran itself. 

No point making a round wreath when you need a tall hantaran, right?

So there you go. 

Maybe I'll buy more and try again later. 

Hopefully I could do more prettier :D